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All Frapped Up: The First Day of Class

College LifeNyshell Imari LawrenceComment

I haven't seriously been in a classroom in about 7 years. It definitely took some deep breathing and a frappuccino to coax myself into actually going. It was scary - voices telling me that I'd be the oldest person in the class (like that matters) and the material would be over my head (which it wasn't). My instructor is blunt, to the point - absolutely no chaser. I like that about her. I survived the first 4 hours of my higher education. And, when it was time to leave I felt much more intelligent than when I first got there.

I spent the rest of the weekend gabbing to my husband about Karl Marx, The Communist Manifesto and Albert Bandara's clown experiment.

I never imagined after all these years I'd end up back on a college campus as a student. Ironically, I work in education at a university - seems like being surrounded by grad students and tons of folks with multiple degrees would've prompted me to start my own voyage. Truth is, I'm good at my job and a degree just isn't necessary. Matter of fact, if I had this same position with a degree, I'd feel like I wasted four years. Great job. Great opportunity. Great benefits. Not something I want to be doing 20 years from now.

For me, going back to school has very little to do with a career change - I just want to prove to myself that I can do it. Plus, I have 2 little girls that need to know that they're capable of doing anything they put their brilliant little minds to - regardless of the circumstances. 

I didn’t know what I wanted to do, but I always knew the woman I wanted to be.
— Diane Von Furstenberg

The first time around I simply talked myself out of doing well. As an extreme introvert, the classroom was very intimidating - by the 3rd or 4th week of any semester I'd convince myself that I wasn't smart enough to finish and that everyone else knew some sort of secret that I didn't - so, I'd drop the class. Or just stop going... Yeah, I'm paying for that. Even still I have zero regrets. I needed the negative experiences to get me to the place that I am today... it's only up from here.

Major Change

College LifeNyshell Imari LawrenceComment

Back in the day I was all like I have absolutely no idea what I want to be when I grow up. When I was 10 I wanted to be the first black female president, after that a teacher. By high school I was looking forward to being a cosmetologist, After graduation, I was set on being a teacher, again. But then I could ALSO see myself as a psychologist, news anchor, journalist or dancer. Currently, I'm a secretary. Yeah, just a mess.

Today though, I was thinking I should just be Oprah:

Sidenote: C'monnnnn Oprah! And Beyonce' - yes folks,  I love them both.

Plus, there is so much truth in the above ^ (found here).

What's that you say? I'm no Oprah or Beyonce'. Fine.

POINT IS (I say this a lot, in case you haven't noticed) - I've officially changed my major to Speech Communications. In case you're wondering what I shall do with such degree, the answer is 'Take Over The World.' More accurately though, I plan to help folks find their passion, follow their dreams, currate their brand, live beyond limits and etcetera.

Here's to OWNing who I am and accepting my gifts. (see what I did there?)

Mommy's Got Class

College LifeNyshell Imari LawrenceComment

So, the hubs and I were texting earlier today...

Me: I’m going back to school

Him: Say what?!

Me: Yea. Classes start quick – would you be okay with me doing a Saturday class – meaning you’d have the girls?

Him: Heck yea!

Me: Okie doke

Him: When do you start?

Me: September 6th

Him: Get it Boo!

Oh, I'm definitely getting it.

I love my husband - he’s so supportive. I coulda told this man I was going to moonlight as a makeup artist at the circus and he’d be excited. He believes in me and my dreams – no matter how crazy or farfetched they may be. Everybody needs somebody ready and willing to stand in their corner like that - without hesitation. So, umm yeah, I'm going back to school.


Here's the skinny:

I haven't 'seriously' been in a classroom in at least 7 years. I left for college fresh out of high school (11 years ago), did a year at the university and decided I'd rather work full-time. I took a class or two, here 'n' there, but never really put much effort into it. I'm a multi-passionate person and could never quite put my finger on what I wanted to do or be, until now.

So here I am, 2 kids, 1 husband and a whole bunch of excuses later, FINALLY ready to get it done. I've always dreaded the idea of spending 4 (or so) years of my life simply going to school - now I've spent the last 10 years diligently working jobs I like but don't LOVE with little to show. Sure, the pay is good but I'm desiring something money can't buy. Happiness.

I almost forgot the point of this post (insert dorky laugh)... POINT IS, I decided to start this blog to document my journey - current classes, work/school/family balance and inspiration - I mean, who couldn't use some of that?

The first class I'm taking is Sociology 120. Whoot-whoot.

Here's to early Saturdays and Starbucks iced coffee.